The little things

Day after day, time and time again I write one word down and erase it due to the fact that I do not know the meaning of this word to the extent that I wish I would. I know that this word is powerful and helps some people to grow and tears other people down. People say that this word can conquer all is this true? Can it make you happy beyond belief? Sure it canto a point... then all of a sudden it breaks you in half and tears you apart limb from limb until you are nothing. I do not know if this is me or if this is just a deep growing pain aching in me yearning to know the real meaning of this word or if it is just a hallucination. My days are mainly torn by people and their lives colliding with my own. Trust is the main reason this word is difficult for me to come across. I've lost trust for the majority of people around me because everyone leaves me and walks out without saying goodbye. They decide to take with them a part of me which I will never get back.

I know that I need to be able to know that if one day I went to the store or work I would be able to come back to someone at home waiting for me. I know that this is my first blog and I may be babbling on about a subject that is clear, but it just needs to be seen in different perspectives. Maybe one day you will find that one person that gives you that feeling deep down that gives you the structure in your life to show you your path.

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